hurt!Dean would still be the big brother who’d try to take care of Sam.
I think the reason why I can read bottom!Dean is just because I can totally envision Dean needing Sam that much to where he would bottom where as I can't really see Sam doing that at least not at first.
I can see Dean being so hungry for love and wanting deep inside himself for Sam to love him unconditionally and yes even wanting Sam in some way to cherish him and the bedroom would be the only place where Sam could express that since Dean doesn't like talking.
So I can totally see Dean bottoming for Sam because I believe he needs that kind of validation, painfully so since John isn't there to give it and Sam is the closest thing he has left for unconditional love and family. It's not so much that I don't think he will ever top (I can't envision him not at some point wanting a turn) but so much that he would bottom for Sam first because he has this neediness about him that only family can soothe. Where as with Sam I can't see him wanting to bottom for Dean especially after his break for Stanford. Especially with him wanting out of the baby brother mold and for Dean to respect him in his own right.
I can see Dean doing whatever he could to make this thing with Sam work though and enticing him with sex. He has done that emotionally it seems in season 1 to the extent where he was quite shocked that Sam was considering leaving him again.
but I get a kink out of Sam actually wanting to bend over!
I completely understand this. lol.
I’m also kind of turned off by Sam being wimpy
I get this too, but I am also a huge fan of emotional intimacy and the boys let too much go unsaid to where I am willing to take in a little more estrogen then usual in my boys if it accomplishes some resolutions to the boys outstanding issues.
And since Sam is more important than anything, he usually yields to him, asks for forgiveness and goes back to him immediately because he’s afraid Sam might leave yet again. I think he sees that as a weakness but he still wants Sam to just listen to him and do as he says. He learnt to take orders and he was taught how to give them to Sam by his Dad and he still expects Sam to follow them.
I think this is a beautiful statement I think it's a defining one for if you are a top!Dean or a Bottom!Dean fan. Which Dean appeals more to you, yielding!Dean or authoritarian!Dean and both are valid interpretations.
It still doesn’t explain why I feel so strongly about Jensen bottoming
Is it the bottoming that bothers you or the out of characterness? I imagine that for me I could never be able to get into a fic that was out of character or didn't read true to salient personality points. At that point it wouldn't even bother me who was bottoming.
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hurt!Dean would still be the big brother who’d try to take care of Sam.
I think the reason why I can read bottom!Dean is just because I can totally envision Dean needing Sam that much to where he would bottom where as I can't really see Sam doing that at least not at first.
I can see Dean being so hungry for love and wanting deep inside himself for Sam to love him unconditionally and yes even wanting Sam in some way to cherish him and the bedroom would be the only place where Sam could express that since Dean doesn't like talking.
So I can totally see Dean bottoming for Sam because I believe he needs that kind of validation, painfully so since John isn't there to give it and Sam is the closest thing he has left for unconditional love and family. It's not so much that I don't think he will ever top (I can't envision him not at some point wanting a turn) but so much that he would bottom for Sam first because he has this neediness about him that only family can soothe. Where as with Sam I can't see him wanting to bottom for Dean especially after his break for Stanford. Especially with him wanting out of the baby brother mold and for Dean to respect him in his own right.
I can see Dean doing whatever he could to make this thing with Sam work though and enticing him with sex. He has done that emotionally it seems in season 1 to the extent where he was quite shocked that Sam was considering leaving him again.
but I get a kink out of Sam actually wanting to bend over!
I completely understand this. lol.
I’m also kind of turned off by Sam being wimpy
I get this too, but I am also a huge fan of emotional intimacy and the boys let too much go unsaid to where I am willing to take in a little more estrogen then usual in my boys if it accomplishes some resolutions to the boys outstanding issues.
And since Sam is more important than anything, he usually yields to him, asks for forgiveness and goes back to him immediately because he’s afraid Sam might leave yet again. I think he sees that as a weakness but he still wants Sam to just listen to him and do as he says. He learnt to take orders and he was taught how to give them to Sam by his Dad and he still expects Sam to follow them.
I think this is a beautiful statement I think it's a defining one for if you are a top!Dean or a Bottom!Dean fan. Which Dean appeals more to you, yielding!Dean or authoritarian!Dean and both are valid interpretations.
It still doesn’t explain why I feel so strongly about Jensen bottoming
Is it the bottoming that bothers you or the out of characterness? I imagine that for me I could never be able to get into a fic that was out of character or didn't read true to salient personality points. At that point it wouldn't even bother me who was bottoming.